12/31/99

Well the day of the year has arrived, and it's not that great a day for me as I'd always imagined it would be, but then again that was when i thought it would be the new millenium.....oh well there's always next year. Here I am pigging out all day watching tv...boy i'm going to regret this, and worst of all I get to stay people all around me are nuts, so many problems that I try to ignore....I'm still dreading going back to school, I don't wanna do it, what are people gonna have to say this time around....maybe nothing......My new years resolution is a big one, to stop doing things that only hurt me, to stay thin (my daily obsession), to reach new levels in my music, and to try and figure myself out......all inside things, not one of my friends would understand. Dante's always busy now, he never has any time for me, i feel left out, but i'll deal with it, he has a girlfriend, and unlike me, he has a life. If I could have one wish right now it would be to tell all those misinformed people that the millenium is not this year, but next......I've been online almost all day today, and i've done some interesting things, like on this page bolt.com I posted a lot of stuff, and went chatting, and I looked for cars.....I love driving! it's very fun....normally I drive my dad's car, but today I got to drive the Rav4...I like that car, but to tell the truth it's like a toy, and i like the Jeep Cherokee better. I feel mentally stable today (joking i always do...i just have problems ok!hehe) I'm ok I guess, but there's nothing to do, no one home, no where to go, just sit my butt here all night........Bobby left camping today, and Lori got home yesterday, myriah.....um lets not mention, and all the rest are to busy for me....I feel loved I tell ya!

 

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