12/20/99
Bobby's been on his cruise since saturday, I'm not sure when he'll be getting back.this time away from him has given me time to think of what I really want from him....If I'm willing to just let him go and move on, or if i really want to be his girlfriend.....even now though I don't know what I want to do. DJ is driving me nuts...he wants to borrow my $500 dollar amp, and wont take no for an answer, i HATE people like that. I'm supposed to be going to Lori's christmas party in a few hours, but i've been put in a really bad mood, I don't have cassies present yet, and on top of that I have a voice lesson tonight. Toay I posted most of the stuff on my sight, and it's looking ok, I just really want to change my picture, tony says he can help me get one that's better than that one, he thinks my hair looks better when it's down, not up.....I wish my mom would just leave me alone, she's been up since I have, and i've had no time alone yet today! I don't know if I'll ever make my mind up about the whole bobby situation, i've always been in constant question of him, and weather he even really wants to spend time with me......he never has any time for me......I just don't know what to do!