11/23/00
You got it, it's Thanksgiving, what am I thankfull for....not much really. I don't like turkey, I don't like mashed potatoes.....and I don't like family, what thanks for me hu? It's not really that bad, I assure you, I did get to spend the night with Michelle, and that wasn't so bad. She said that she felt weird talking to me about Mike just because....I can kind of understand I guess....it doesn't really matter to me, I don't own him.
There was a bomb threat at school last monday during the middle of second hour. We sat outside in the stadium for two hours....it was freezing. Mike was a suspect for the bomb threat, and some rumors are going around about him now......He was only a suspect because of his heritage....that's wrong, I knew that something like that was beyond him. Mike likes to fool around, but I think he knows that something like that is not a joke.
I have one more thing to do with marching band, and then it's all over.....the parade on saturday. I can't wait till the parade, it should be fun, being with the band always is....and what I said to Mike tonight doesn't matter, it never did. Mike is my friend above all, that's what I think of him as, there might be a little bit more than that feeling, but I can't play on that always.....think of what would happen if you played on every crush....how different would life be! I know my life would be different, I would have been embarassed a whole lot more, I might have turned out to be more outgoing....or maybe I would have gotten a few more boyfriends.....who knows...lol. I'm out going enough though, I know when I need to make a stand, and when to give it up....that's what's important.
Mike learned the same way that I did who his friends really are.....he said to me that the bomb threat stuff at least showed him who his real friends were......and I told him that I'm his real friend, because I believe that I am. I would stand up for him if he needed some one to, and I would listen if he wanted to talk, but in the same respect I would back off if that was what was needed. I would do that with any of my friends. Kids in school are horrible, they kick you when your down, but there is always that one hand there to pick you up, that one hand, and that's what matters, that hand that might save one person from taking a life.
I haven't talked to Chris since I got mad at him, I don't think things will ever be the same again...but I would like to be friends. We're not against eachother, but I know we're not close, and that might be for the best actually. There's no real way to asses that situation...it was just one of those things.
Tony has resorted to trying to deafen me on the phone. I wear earplugs when I talk to him on the phone because he simply talks too damn loud for me. I love to tease him about that though, I find it amusing. Today we joked about how much we ate, and how much more we'll weigh tomorrow....I'm hoping that I'll be ok tomorrow...:) The guy that co-writes on tonys page is a crack monkey....I swear he is....he says the weirdes stuff.....dunno.
I need to get new pictures, I know it, but I can't right now, so it's too bad. I talked to Kyle this morning about some random subjects. He's actually become quite interesting, and more deep than he used to be, very cool, very cool. Well, anyhow I'm tired, so good night.