10/31/00
Yeah, it's halloween and I'm all candied up, just like the rest of the candy loving world....but could it make me feel any worse? Probably not....I ate too much at one time and now I'm feeling terribly sick, though I doubt you care to know that. Today's been one of the weirdest days I've had in a while, one that will stick in my memory for way too long I'm sure.
My friend Chris finally got herself a boyfriend...Matt, he's a cool guy. I hope that he'll treat her well...but it's odd they're from two completely different worlds ...how did they ever start liking eachother....it's cool. I on the other hand, yes I'm still single, and it's only the beginning of my single life I'm afraid....don't pitty me, I feel no pitty for myself, why should you.
I'm in the middle of reading one of the best books I've ever read, it's called Pope Joan....awesome, awesome book about a girl struggling to learn in the middle ages. Anyone who likes to read might like the book. Books about girls struggling to make their marks in life really interest me though, first there's 'Like water for chocolate'...by far my favorite book ever..about a girl trying to break the cruel peice of her family heritige and be able to marry...very descriptive beautifully written book, then there's 'Jane Eyre' about an orpaned girl, her parents dead...her relitives abandoned her, and about her love of a man and her struggles to achieve her dutys in life....and now my 'Pope Joan' all I can say is that it's just sheer beauty.
I finally accepted my new guitar teacher, I had rejected him the first time we met.....he didn't compare to Andrew, but I've learned to accept the fact that he is not Andrew, and he will be good for me. This guy went to college for guitar, so I'm hoping to get a fairly good start on it, so that I can work with my playing in the future....but I will never forget Andrew...He was my mentor, the one person I looked up to, and I loved him as a friend, as anyone could imagine I was torn when he moved away...It was a sad day. I cried because he was leaving, it was that bad.
Lately I've wanted to do something crazy, step out of my shell, do something unlike something I would do, but I can't think of anything to try. I want to try bungee jumping, can't...i want to just walk up to someone who I think is cute and tell them exactly that, but I can't....I want to be spontaneous, but I can't.....I can't do anything.....but i am having a party soon. I'm hoping to have a fun time at my party, it's not for a birthday, it doesn't cost anything, it's just because I felt like having a party....i'm just praying everyone will show up.*crosses fingers*
Well I have nothing interesting to say....bye bye.