06/22/00
Here I am, it's summer, three days untill I go to Miami, and I'm sitting here on my butt.....waiting for the rain to stop. Yesterday I went to work out with Michelle and Melissa, and enjoyed it a lot. I hope that they will invite me again today, or tomorrow....that would be really cool. I really haven't talked to Josh much lately, and well I'm starting to get a little upset about it. I don't get to see him every day, and now I'm having even a hard time getting a hold of him when I want to.....it's fustrating. Tony says not to worry, that if it's been two weeks to start and worry, but it's only been a few days. I don't know, but it's my instincts to need more attention than what Josh's currently giving me. For all I know he heard my message last night and is mad at me now.....but that's the chance I take when I let myself just lash out a little bit when I'm angry.....god he doesn't want to see me angry. I'm tired of it raining every day, and I'm tired of shopping. I've done so much shopping lately that I wouldn't care to look at another mall for a few months at least. I've been refusing to go to the mall every time my mother wants too....simply because I'm just tired of being there, of looking at things, of trying things on. I'm not so excited about camp anymore; in a way I wouldn't mind not going simply because of the fact that I'm not really sure what to expect, or what's expected of me when I get there this year. I don't even know if I'm going to tell Josh to come and see me on Sunday.....for all I know he's forgotten that I'll be there....probably for the better. I'm hoping to see some of the same kids in the dorms this year...Brian, Animal (who could forget those two....they're crazy and fun to hang around) Dave (he's a drummer) and hopefully Mike (who is also a drummer, he actually doesn't live far from me....he's pretty cool). I'm also happy that I'll be seeing the Amandas' again and Rene(one of the instructors that I took to) and hopefully a few of the other friends I made last year. If I don't get a hold of Josh today he's not going to be getting a very happy welcome from me. Knowing me when I get mad I'll probably ignore him slightly, and be just a little mean......though I hope not too much, because I really do like him a lot, he just makes me MAD sometimes. I like attention......and that's a fact.....hahaha.....well hopefully I'll be able to write one more time before I leave, and with good news I'm hoping....untill next time....