06/13/00
Well I could be vain and say that today is just like every other day of summer, hot, way too long, and boring, but I wont. Today's actually a little more interesting, I seem to be more and more in control of myself, which is a good thing, and I MIGHT get to see Josh on either thursday or friday, he's not sure yet. It seems as though I have myself a personal slave for a week when I'm in Maimi....anything I say goes....my boy is just there to full fill my every wish....oh how good that sounds! It's great to be dominant, so many good things that you can do to torture the submersive...ahhh. I've also been shopping a lot, maybe too much, but I've been finding things that interest me at different various stores.
Well for the past few days my control over myself has been so much easier. I'm either doing something where I don't have the time to eat, or I'm just calm and doing things to fill up my day. In either case i'm not having the problem I used to have when I was home on the weekends or on shorter vacations. This, needless to say, pleases me very much, because my clothes look so good on, and I actually feel like being alive every day, instead of wishing that I'd just stayed in bed.
On the topic of interesting 'encounters' I have so much to say. first off....I've been trying to get my mom to let Amy sleep over next week sometime....(kinky...*j/k*) I wont have much time after I leave for camp to spend time with my friends here, so I decided that I'd better do the things I want to now, and not put them on hold....what a greedy little bugger I am. Also, on the same topic, I talked to Josh last night, now that really is kinky...haha....and we talked about possibly getting together later this week, camp, outside of camp....and a few other things. When we get bored on the phone let's just say we get freaky, and when we get freaky I get descriptive, and when I get descriptive he has one thing to say....."Wow...." haha there's a little more to it than that, but, you know, there's always a chance of the wrong eyes seeing what I would type here.....haha, everyone will just have to wait to find out.
Shopping, the 'funnest' part of summer, not really, I don't quite enjoy it much. I've been to mall after mall, the whole summer! I've had pretty good luck so far, but I would still like to find some more nice shirts to wear for school. The other day at the mall my mother and I were waiting in the check out line at Express.....let me just say now that the name doesn't match the service...and It was taking forever for them to check us out! This guy and girl came in and were looking at some shirts (for the girl, obviously) when my mother and I thought the same thing at the same time about her guy. I was walking by him and thought....gee he's about the right hight, right build...he kinda reminds me of Josh. When I got back to my mom she said almost the same thing, and we just started laughing. Strange things happen at the mall I guess.
I also made my decision about Joshes 'offer' about when I go to Miami. Amy know's what it is, she thought I should go for it, but sorry to say....cause I know it's every girls dream to have two guys waiting on her at one time....I downed the idea. I decided to explore my ONE guy first before I added another to the equasion.....and plus I wouldn't feel right doing it, it would feel too much like cheating....Like I said to Josh about it last night....why do I need two guys when I have one like him who already works too well.....ahhhh. Ofcourse he said I was bullshitting.......well not completely....he does do his work with ease...a good teacher of different ideas too. Now you can tell I just can't wait to get my hands on him....haha the things I would do...only I know, he hasn't even heard all of it....let's just say...he didn't even last half way through on the phone....now imagine if this was physically....hahahaha I'm good...
Well enough with the nymphomatic joking, and leading on to certain topics....I think that I'll just go and enjoy the remainder of this ever boring day...and possibly try to make something interesting out of it.