06/11/00
Ohhhh the fustration! All I wanted to do was upload a few small things, but NOOOO!!! There has to be things that people can't see, things that are driving me insaine to fix, but I think I fixed it anyhow. Two weeks from today I will be in Miami at camp, and I don't know what I'm going to do about journals. Maybe I'll write them when I'm there and just upload them when I get back from my week long break....I really don't know. I also don't know what to do when I go up to Maine, but I guess I still have a little bit of time left to figure that one out, after all we aren't going for at least a week after camp.
My mother has been dragging me to the mall constantly, looking for clothes. I know I need some new ones before I hit Miami, but my god it's heck having to go shopping 24-7. We go store through store with almost no luck! I haven't been having any luck finding any shirts that fit either, they're all too small in the upper rib cage area, and they look sooooo bad! My mom's actually thinking about taking me outlet shopping (ahhhh love outlets) in Naples....she made the joke that if we invited Josh along I wouldn't get any shopping done, we'd be fooling around the whole time.....and I don't doubt it. Josh and I are big goof offs when we're together.
My mind is more at ease today than it was a few days ago, obviously....And I'm not so angry about anything anymore. I've just been taking the time to just sit around and do nothing, and wala I feel just a little bit better than before. it's a good thing for me to realize that no one can make me do anything, or give me away like a service, and realize that i'm in control of most everything I do. Realizing stuff like that makes me feel good, and bubbly inside....just because I know that I choose if i'm taken advantage of.
Well camp starts in exactly a week, as I said before, and I'm really excited, but I'll really have to figure out that journal thing. That gets a little confusing for me....but I'll figure it out.