06/05/00
Today I'm actually rather happy, I talked to Josh last night, realized how stupid I was for thinking wrong for even a second, and well...I'm happy. I guess you could say I haven't been eating much lately....but really that's not my fault! There is not a single bit of edible food in my house I swear, so it's not totally by choice. I posed my question upon Josh last night, and I guess I have the green light to go, he actually liked the thought of the experiments Amy and I might be trying. I'm still a little iffy as to weather I want to get into something like that or not, but what are my chances of something bad coming from it? What are my chances of just having some pesky teenaged fun from it? But like I said I'm still not sure, I'll have to think about it a little bit more, before anything goes off the drawing board. I'm guessing by now that I have most of you confused and wondering what the heck I'm refering to trying with Amy.....but that's ok, It's kind of the point of not writing it...could be many different things. Anyway, Josh and I, once again, talked about some interesting things last night...things that Shaina, Andrea, Chris (not the female one) and I would talk about in math class.....haha. We just sort of got on the topic of matrurbation....something that more than one person has been trying to get me to try for a little while. I wont say exactly what I asked him....ofcourse this was because I was getting silly at this point, but he made me guess the answer, and I guess I was damn right. The greatest thing about Josh is that I don't even have to tell him that I'm feeling a little down, he'll just automatically go and make me feel better, get me laughing or something. I was feeling a bit down last night and he did something really sweet he said "hey wait....I think I hear something....listen" then on his side I heard a BIG smooch from him to me, which I returned with a somewhat littler one....(and yes I know littler is not really a word!) Today I get my pictures back...the ones that I've been waiting for since thursday! And then I'm going to go hang with Tony, we'll scan some pictures, and then well, just hang. The sad thing is that Tony's leaving tomorrow to go to Chicago...so I'll be here all alone....and Dante's leaving soon, and Chris isn't here :(.....but I'm going to camp soon anyhow....hehe I can have my own fun there. Well tengo que irme chicos.....adios.