05-05-00
I never thought that week would end, I'm so glad that it's friday. A lot happened today actually; in my written journal I wrote and wrote, it's been getting very deep, and I keep tabs on it more now than ever. I always make sure that the journal is on me or with me. My little out of school project seems to be catching some speed right here even in the beginning stages. In one class I got 24 signatures, and I'd really like to get 500-1000, the higher the better. I'm very proud of the work i've done on it so far, and mrs. hipp. said that my presentation was absolutely great. On monday I'm planning on going to school early to work with her on the letter, and refining the petition. With her being a teacher she can give me possible arguements, and possible solutions along with a lot more information on the beginning of my topic and whos mind to change. If you didn't know already my school is requiring a sports class next year, as well as taking the summer sports credits away, alone each it ok, but doing both is runing a lot of kids highschool plans, and limiting us one more choice. For me it's limiting my ability to get into drama and possibly become a thespian next year, that makes me very angry. Sports classes are a lot, a lot of kids are involved in after school sports, then for them to have one more, and then my situation which is paralleled by many others, it's not going to work, and I'm going to prove it. I'm very tired today, my vision was a bit blurred earlier in spanish class, I deffinately need some sleep tonight, I haven't been getting enough....which is Joshes fault, bad! but you know, if he's the reason i'm not sleeping that's not such a bad thing. I'm deffinately obsessed with my Macy Gray cd lately, i've been listening to it constantly. The sad thing about my cds is that I tend to pick a favorite and never listen to more than four of them at any given point in time. It's almost like they are a waste of money, but for that while that I really enjoy each one individually it's worth the money. Each day I cool off a little bit more from being in Miami, but I was really angry that I left Joshs identification card at home today, I kept wanting to look at it in the middle of class and it wasn't there. I wonder what he's thinking about all of this, I know I ask him constatly, but that's because he doesn't tell me what he's thinking if I don't ask.....I'm currently having some writers block with poetry, no new ideas, but my journal writing feels as though it's getting much, much better. It's almost as if I just write and write to see what will come off of my pen, sometimes things I didn't even know were bothering me untill I started writing. For instance, today I was writing my journal and I had been talking to Josh about my biggest "skeleton"....I didn't tell him details because I didn't know if he'd want to really know, but really I'm kind of nervous to tell him. He was amazed when I told him the total truth about bobby and my breaking up, I don't think that he knew what to think about it. I'm not sure if I'm going to call Josh tonight or not.....it's friday, so probably, we'll probably have to work out a phone scedual so that we don't start running up high phone bills as a hobby....god knows our parents would end up killing the both of us. Sarah got a bit mad today when I told her he was 17....she said "your mom would approve of that and not Adam!" and playingly punched me, and with our luck adam walked right by, he knew we were talking about him. I told her that my mom would not approve of adam because she knows too much about adam....she thinks, I never know with her anymore. You know the one thing I've been meaning to say, I think it constantly, is that I'm so glad that I took a typing class last year, it's a life saver, I can type pretty fast, and keep my train of thought going. Whoever made us take that class was a smart person. Well this is turning to mush, so i'll leave you be untill tomorrow....