04/27/00
Today's been quite a bland day, full of may different things. At first to say the truth, I didn't think I was going to be writing an entry for my journal, but things change... I guess, as always, the easiest place to start is from the beginning...where else would I start? I felt a lot better today than I did yesterday, I'm loosing the weight quite quickly, but then again I'm eating about 500-600 calories a day, which is pretty much starvation, the only time I eat is when I get home, and all I eat is my daily chocolate fix (left overs from easter), a lean cuisine, some green beans, and something breaded....not very much, but I'm desperate to loose about 15lbs in three days, so what other choice do I have? And yes Tony....this kind of behavior would be concidered mildly annorexic, but only if I did it constantly....which I don't, and never will force myself too! It's actually quite an interesting subject though, if you think about it...i'm not eating much, and drinking a lot of water, therefore flushing my body of a lot of it's excess fat....it's just plain interesting, but I'll say one thing, it's a heck of a lot better than what I was doing before...that was hell! My friend Andrea is sort of scaring me a little bit...but this subject, like any, has a beginning aswell. I went out with a guy named Rob Tigro last year, and now my friend Andrea is dating him...which doesn't bother me at all, because I love Andrea to death! Anyhow she told me today that she's thinking about becoming pregnant...with his baby, apparently he brought up the topic and she said no, but now she's concidering it. I didn't want to tell her that I know that she's not ready for the responcibility, the bills, and the love this baby will need, because I know that when she puts her mind to something she's going to do it no matter what anyone says, so I tried just to give her the best advice that I possibly could. I first said that if she thinks that she is completely ready for the responcibility, is sure that Rob will stay to help her (that's what I'm not sure of), can pay bills, and is sure her mom wont kick her out, and most of all is sure that she absolutely wants to do it, no questions asked...to go for it.....but I was more hoping to convince her not to do it. I've been taking pictures like nuts the last two days, for my page ofcourse, and I'll be getting them developed as soon as I take my last two shots (tomorrow). I'll probably get some new images on here early next month...really early if I'm lucky. I feel like Amy and I have some sort of strange bond now, since last friday, that we never had before. Even though it's kind of sad, the thing that brought us together, it's not a bad bond, because I've always wanted to be closer to her than I was. I've just always felt like there was something about her, maybe it's her permiscuous (hehe) ways that intregue me so much.....lord knows she and Chris are the devil and angel on my shoulders...Amy being my little devil, and Chris my angel. Oh and one more thing about Amy, she's going to prom (YIPPY!) with a senior...I hope she has fun, lord knows I would. Anyhow, for not wanting to write this is quite a bit, so I'll be closing for today, as always, Adios!