04/23/01
I've been trying so hard to write a new poem, but I just can't bring myself to do it. I know what and who I want to write about but nothing is coming out the right way. It's supposed to be a poem to someone that I care for but have never told, and I just can't write it. Why? not because I don't want to, but none of the words ever seem right, nothing is the way I want it to be. How do I write it, how? I need some inspiration.
I have some rather incriminating pictures of the boys from the play......they walked around in our dressing rooms in their underware and bowties......and they even posed for me, it was quite hillarious. I think my mom will croak when she sees all of the male booty that I got on my camera.....too much lol. I also have some very cute ones of me, Dariene and Gracy from our dress rehearsal......they're too cute!:)
I've decided who I want to be for thespian inductions......Mary Poppins, I think she's a great character, and I would love to be her for inductions! All I've been doing for the past few days is watching movies to see who I want to be, and she's the one I decided on......because she's supercalifragilisticexpyalidoshis!
I feel weird knowing all that i've done in the past, and how much different I am now. I feel like I'm a different person, I did something that I thought I'd never do, respect myself, and I said no to something......I think now and ask myself if I ever really loved anyone that I did anything with, but really the only boys that I love are the ones who are my closest friends......I love them all like my brothers and I adore each and every one of them.....Chris, Tony, Dante, Kyle.....and others....They're the ones that are ususally there when I just need to rant about how much I hate guys and how much I want some guy who doesn't exist yet......they're great.
I've always dreampt that the day would come that I would meet the perfect person, but sadly that day just hasn't come yet. They've all got something up their sleeves, and something in their mind, and I don't think I want to know what exacty it is....well that's enough from me, i'm going to leave you all now......thinking about how pittiful I am......bye
"Ye shall go out with joy and be lead forth with peace, the mountains and the hills shall break forth before you into singing"