03/04/00
Well I've got my page back up and running as of a few days ago, and today is the start of my adding things, and getting new things to add. There are a lot of things I've missed in the past while of not writing, so I guess this is where I should put them all.....Well the logical way for me to write this is from the beginning, the long version. Mike Bustamante, the name that starts it all.....I had the biggest crush on Mike last year, but he only returned it with hate and cruelty. I soon learned to hate Mike, and resent him...I didn't ever want to look at him or talk to him again, much like the way I felt untill last night. The first time I began to see something different in Mike was at homecoming this year, when Michelle practically forced me into talking to him, and much to my suprise he was nice! I didn't really pay Mike a lot of attention whe I was with Bobby, but we would always say hi, and I remember one day Myriah (i think) told me that he had asked for my AIM s/n, still I thought nothing of it. We talked a bit online, and I got to understyand him a little bit more, the a long while after tht he ice broke...I was telling Mike that Lori had acrush on him, and he revealed his on me. After that I wouldn't let anything get weird, he gave me his number, I called sometimes, and all was ok, untill one night when I got the bright idea to sneed out. I went bowling with Mike, Tony, and Mikes' dad that night, and had fun....Tony and Mike invited me to the beach the next day, and I readily agreed. To this point nothing 'wrong' had happened, but now is where it starts to get fishy. At the beach Tony had tickled me, and Mike didn't know how to do it, so he tried to experiment (i'm ticklish on my side), at first he was just tickling, but it became a little more when he touched a little high, thn a little low. When the three of us returned back at Tonys house Mike and I contunued to fool around a bit, touching and so on, and when Tony was dressing Mike kissed me (his lips taste really sweet!). The next day I began to panic about weather things were going to get weird, so I called Mile...about five times...threeof wich he wasn't home. He assured me that nothing would change, but boy was he wrong. He make a joke the next day that I was 'stalking' him, and I got very offended and took it the wrong way. This continued for a few days, and I began to get quite angry. It was then that I realized that I couldn't lie to Lori about what had happened, after all I wanted her to hear from me not the rumor mills in school. I told Lori, and fortunately she wasn't really mad, but the next day we devised an evil plan to get back at Mile, we would stage a fight about everything. To cut a rather lenghty story short Lori and I put on a little show for Mike, and he believed it all....along with about the whole school. The next morning we busted him, and I hinted to him how displeased with him I was. He got angry, and I stayed angry, and well we haven't talked to eachother for a week or so. This stand off probably would have continued id my conversation with Chris hadn't taken place last night/ Chris told me that she realy thinks he still wants to be friends/or whatever because of his reaction when I'm mentioned, but he's mand, and I need tobe the big guy and sayt that i'm sorry, she even said that she thinks he likes me, and that was before I said anything. So now I'm going to wait for Chris to find out more info for sure, and well I'm going to try to patch this up, I don't want Mike and I to hate eachother forever over this, maybe we can atleast be friends in a way.