02/14/00
valentines day..
Ha, valentines day, what a stupid day, half the people on the earth are single anyway, and how many of them even have a chance with their crush? It's a rotten day, I really think it is, but then hey, it'd be fun if you weren't single. Yesterday at band practice Sean was trying to figure out what to get his girlfriend Mindy for Valentines day, he wouldn't go with something too common, how difficult. do I told him to get her a teddy bear and a rose, don't know if he did, but I personally think it was a good idea. I need to scan some new pictures of myself to put on my page, I have one of me and my Les Paul out by the pool, I like that one to put on the page, aswell as the band page. I guess the north east got pounded with snow, they don't have school. I was talking to Cassie a little bit, and I finnally got the finnishing touches for a gift for her, now I need to put it in a box, and send it to her, see how she likes it. I'm kind of glad that I sayed home, get some time to work on my page, add some stuff, delete some stuff, and to change a lot of old news. I've been becoming very depressed lately, and I don't know how i'm going to pull myself out of it, I've been trying not to eat a lot, but I always end up eating too much, and then I get depressed and it's a vicious cycle, and I wish that I could get help somehow, but I'll try to do it myself. I'm starting to get into techno, it's pretty cool, I like it alot, and I burned a cd of mostly techno last night at tonys house. I just realized how much happier I am alone, but then I get so depressed, I really need to stop eating candy, that's my main problem, grrrr, damn candy! hehe well It's life, you never know. I started to make amens with Bobby yesterday, I decided it was time to grow up, life's too short to stay mad at him, he said he though I wouldn't ever talk to him again, guess he was wrong. I don't know why I'm like I am, Bobby and I broke up, I was really mad, but I do still care for him, I don't want him back, but I still care for him, and even if I don't know why, he did always listen to me, and he's someone who sees life from my perspective, maybe he'll work as a friend. For the past week I had been contemplating weather to call Bobby or not, I really had started missing talking to him, and there were a few signs that told me that I should do it, and I'm glad that I at least started to, I'll probably talk to him tonight and see what's up.