02/10/00
Emotions swallow up the people who we wish that we could be. I wish that I could be someone who went around not caring about what people say or think, someone who surpassed all evils, but I'm not. Somewhere along the line we all have to accept the truths about who we are, and I need to make that step now, to accept myself now. I hate sounding like it's so easy, because I know that it truthfully isn't. Life isn't easy, I don't know if it's easy for anyone, but life's not easy for me. Last night Mike asked me if I wasnted to go to the fair friday, I want to go, but my mom would have to take me, and I don't think she will. I wanted to hang out with him this weekend, but I was thinking more along the lines of the mall, or the movies with some other friends. Dante and I were hanging out yesterday, and we found this back way through the woods to get from my house to his house, and anywhere in our development quick! Needless to say we had fun. Dante is the only person that I tell everything to, I trust him, and I know that he wouldn't even care to tell anyone what we talk about. Last night I was talking to Mike on the phone, and told him about what my mom said about the band trip, and he was lik, "Tell her I said 'hi' so that she doesn't think we're going to do anything on the band trip" It was hillarious, but ya know......he had to keep bugging me till I did it, what an interesting case....