01/24/00
Today was the first day of spring musical try outs, and I'm so scared for tomorrow...the singing part. I have a peice to present, I have feeling in my voice, but god what if I forget the lyrics, or do something stupid!!! I know that I'm going to do good though, I have the tallent, I've got my voice, and nothing can stop me, I know that I'm good, and this is my chance to show it. Besides the fact that auditions were today, I had a weird ass day...It all started this morning when I realized that yesterday put a whole new meaning to being "friends" with the people who were at cindys party.....let's just say it was weird, who would have known, then when I was going and getting the attendance and stuff for my first hour teacher, who did I see talking to fuller, but bobby... lets just say that I growled, and the teacher in front of me probably thinks i'm weird now....I couldn't get away from bobby today, and that was bad in its self, I dislike him very much, very much, god he's such a jerk, why didn't I end it with him a long time ago, was I that dumb? Any how, after that whole incident, now speaking about after 3rd hour, I was walking and talking with my friend brian, and my stats. with him are my private posessions, I don't need to fight with myriah over a guy again! whoooo, if she wants him he's all hers! well anyhow, I was talking to him, and I asked him about his now ex girlfriend smee, it turns out that I didn't know that they broke up, before christmas break, how dumb am I now???hehe well and I also asked him about the rumored moving i heard about, turns out that he's just moving to a nother part of englewood, not away from our school, that's cool. Brian's a good person, he's funny, nice, a little flirty, and to say the least he's not a jerk, I mean he's not the cutest guy, but he deserves a nice girl that'll treat him right, and I almost think that with him I'd rather just have a friendship than a relationship, friends last so much longer...plus I've gotten the point where I don't trust myself for anything with a guy, i'm just horrible... Wish me luck in my choices, my future, my life, and my world, wish me luck in my auditions, cause god knows I need the support of someone! hehe Life's a gift, but sometimes we just don't realize it, take the day to realize that someone out there loves you, and you will be loved forever, see ya, till next time.