01/22/00
Shopping, the dreaded word....i've been doing a lot of shopping lately! Last night i got home from school, and sure enough like promised my mom took me to the mall, the fort myers mall....I hate the drive, I hate getting stared at, but I love the clothing they have! To make a long story short I was shopping for 4 hours....and that gets tiring after a while, besides the fact that it's an hour drive to fort myers. This morning everything was going great, i'm the perfect size 7, and I get to have a little fun today...I guess. Then dave called, he's so obsessed about the band that it drives me crazy, can I please kill him, please!!!! ok, so I don't really want to.... I haven't gotten any emails from josh lately, and am beginning to wonder what's up with him. He does live a long way away, but come on he's my friend, i'd like to hear from him. A few days ago I finally forgave myself and took the dagger off, replacing it with my beautiful cross, though that doesn't mean that I forgive bobby, he doesn't deserve to be forgiven. Speaking of bobby I was just online minding my own buisness and he came on and told me I was talking about him....ok so I was mad tuesday, and wouldn't talk to anyone, so at lunch bill started to ask me questions like "Was he really that good?", "I mean, didn't he lack something" and I knew I could let myself feel better about it, so i just had some fun with it, nothing big, not like i'm telling everyone I know that bobby has the smallest dick I've ever seen, or anything like that....that would be really mean, something he would do. But the thing that got me was that he actually threatened me! he said "I can get mean you know", but that really doesn't scare me, neither does bobby....cause first of all...I've been through a lot more than a lot of people my age, and I'm still here, and one more thing wont kill me now, and second, he couldn't lay a hand on me if he wanted to, because I would simply make some strange thing up about sexual abuse, and he'd never forget it....i can get mean to you asshole.... but then again, though he sort of tried to take it back saying he wouldn't do that...i wouldn't put it past him, i mean come on this is the same guy that told me that he would never want to screw up his relationship with me, though he did it in the worst way....i could have been friends with him if he had not done something like that, and i'll never be friends with him, he's a horrible person. Well off of that, myriah told me last night that she likes brian duram, one of my friends, who's a junior, I can't really have much to say about that, but my mom had a bit to talk to me about that whole thing. I think I remember someone saying something about brian moving, i'm not sure, but i think so, and with that it would be useless for her to persue him, though somepeople just don't get that whole idea, besides the fact that he's leaving in a year anyhow.....doesn't take a rocket scientist....