01/07/00
I can't wait untill school's out I'm so anxious to go check my email....it's not even funny! I'm pretty sure about what I want to do about Bobby, but god there's still physical attraction between us. i don't know what I'm going to do with myself, and then on the other hand there's Josh....he seems to be coming on to me like crazy, but he lives so far away.....i wonder about what's gonna happen this summer, whatever it is I know it'll be fun, Josh is a great guy, sweet, and kind, the first thing I ever noticed about him, and he's also a great friend. Last night I prayed to god to help me, and confessed my sins while asking for forgiveness, and I hope he forgave me, and will clear my crouded head. Andrew (my guitar teacher) seems into turning me into a performer, he'll show me the ropes, and get me started...it's great...I may be able to read at camp this year, I'm doing good, but still need a bit of work.