01/06/00
Today I said something I never thought I would say, I'm thinking about giving up Bobby. That doesn't mean that I don't have any feelings for him, but I have to look at the obvious....he ignores me at school, and if not he treats me really horribly, and do I really deserve that. Thought I wish I could tell myself that I'm wrong and that it's just me, or justify his actions, I can't do it this time. He finnally pushed me too far I guess, I can't let muself go through it and get attached to him again, just to get hurt again...like the first time...I wonder weather I ever myself get attached this time? Well on a lighter note I've been getting emails from Josh every day, I look foreward to getting thm now, and I can't wait untill summer! I really want to go down to Miami and see all of my friends down there. Some of my friends that see the emails say oh go out with josh, he's really sweet, but come on think 3 hour drive, even if I did want to I would never see him, and I guess being single is best for me...I just get broken too easily.